Woody Allen once
said, “If you want to make God laugh, tell Him your plans”. It’s kind of funny when you think about
it. Here we are, mere humans, coming to
God telling Him what we are going to do, as if the very act of being able to
think of such plans wasn’t His very own design formed in us! Yet we so easily come before Him acting as if
we are God, having any right telling Him what to do or how to move. I often wonder if God’s just looking down
from heaven, chuckling, with a little smirk on his face and a tiny shake of his
head, while He watches us try to call the shots.
I know in this moment
I kind of find myself in that place…chuckling at my own foolishness in thinking
that I know anything about being God. I
sit here, just days after laying down my first payment for a mission’s trip I
plan to go on this summer, thinking how ironic it is that earlier this year I
was swearing to God that I was not going to step out in faith beyond a certain
point anymore. I thought I understood
myself…I thought I understood my faith in God….…I guess I really just thought
that I could be God and control my life!
Turns out…He’s still God….and on the throne!
You see, months and
months ago when I told God what he could and couldn’t do in my life. I was talking out of fear and a sense of
failure. I had made up my mind that it
wasn’t worth it to step out in faith…..it was better to play it safe….live comfortable. I was willing to sacrifice abundant life for
the sake of being comfortable and to save face. Then somewhere along the line, God brought
me to my knees in total surrender once again.
Then He did what only God can do and took my broken pieces, brought
healing to those places, and sowed me up stronger and tougher than I was before. He gave me the ability to dream again….the
desire to turn to Him more completely…and the faith to once again step out
beyond my comfort zone! God can
certainly do the impossible…and I can’t help but be grateful that he’s done it
in me! Thank you God that you are God and I am not!
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