I've been in this religious funk for a while now....okay so in my world...where days stretch on like weeks and weeks can feel like months or even years..."a while" is probably just a week or two, but none the less I've been living in this....FUNK....for a while, and I hate it!
For years now I've been saying that I don't WANT my relationship with God to be a list of "do's" and "don'ts". I don't WANT to serve Him out of obligation, or make my ministry a "have to" and I don't WANT to read my bible, go to church, pray or do any of those other "religious" things out of duty.
All those things....all the "stuff" that comes from serving God... are things I WANT to do because I WANT to do it. I WANT my heart to WANT to WANT to do them. I WANT to be so in love with God that these things are my automatic desire. But I'm just not there...all the time...yet.
The Bible says something like, no man can come to the Father unless God draws him. And I know in my own life, if it weren't for God seeking me when I was doing everything in my power to hide from Him, I wouldn't be a Christian today.
So is it possible that the "WANT" to WANT God....to read your Bible, to pray, to worship, to serve God....has to come from God himself? Can we really genuinely muster up within ourselves that WANT, or is it in fact something that God has to do in our hearts?