Sometimes you just have to be a little crazy....

  I have the day off today...and usually that means trying to get in a long run.  Yet when I woke up it was pouring out.  I kept thinking...maybe it will stop soon but it only seemed to be getting harder, and after listening to my mom go on and on about how it was only going to get worse as the day went on....I ventured out in the rain to get my run on.  Now to be honest, there is something I find completely refreshing about running in the rain!  It makes me feel strong...like nothing is gonna hold me back!  However after about ten minutes in I was soaked...and within 20 minutes my shoes were so wet they felt like cemement!  I ended up cutting my long run down to three miles and I was WAY off pace....but I'm proud of myself for just doing it...cause sometimes you have to be a little crazy!
  Then to top off my crazy in the rain run...I came home to a mom who was super excited about showing me a article in the newspaper about running!  Maybe she's finally coming around to seeing me as a real runner!

Trust the process...

So Last night I was completely stressing about my relay coming up.  I had such great plans when I went into training for this…and as usually happens… life got in the way of all my plans and thus they ended up being just good intentions (and we all know where those lead).  BUT tonight I took my sister out for a run (we have another race I am training her for)… and while running tonight I felt great!  When will I start believing that when I put in the effort to take care of my body…fuel it correctly and give it rest….that it will be able to do what I ask of it when the time comes?  When I do what I know I need to do it’s amazing what I am capable of!  I need to believe in the process…and trust in my own ability!

Feel the fear and do it anyway!

  I have to be honest... I'm starting to freak out about the fact that in less that two weeks I am suppse to run in a marathon relay team!  Granted it's not a marathon...and not a half....but still...I don't feel ready to even run a 10k right now!  I'll do it and I know it will work out fine....I'm just nervous!
  But I am proud of myself for the fact that this week I have been on top of my nutrition.  The other morning I went running in the rain and still felt good...and I knew it was because I haven't been eating crap!  I find myself looking into the fridge lately and seeking to pull out not just what might taste good but also is going to fuel me for the next couple of hours.  Finally a step in the right direction!

"This is the start of something new....don't you agree?!?!"

   I have been a HORRIBLE blogger this month...but there's just too much to catch up to try and fill it all in now...so I'm not.  Instead what I am about to do has become something very dangerous for me to do this year….but I feel like I can’t just let this moment pass…so here it goes…  This week I lost 11lbs!!!  I am proud of myself!   I literally worked my ass off all week (after having a major ah-ha weekend at my family reunion) and I deserve to celebrate my success!  But…it scares me too.  My track record this year of getting back on track one week and then falling off the wagon the next is not good…I don’t want to celebrate so much that I think I’ve earned the right to slack off!  I can’t ….I’ve got too much more left to do!  So I’m happy and excited…and take joy in my accomplishment….BUT  tomorrow morning the slate wipes clean and it’s a new week….time to work hard all over again….Time to prove to myself once and for all that I can do anything!  Time to stay on track!

Jess

It's All coming back, it's all coming back to me now...

So Today I went for a 4.5 mile run. I do this route about twice a month and although I never quite look forward to it (mostly because I remember the days when it was easy for me and since that is no longer the case it kind of frustrates me), but tonight I was actually impressed with myself for how well I did. Last time I ran this route I was dying about half way through and ended up walking a large portion of the last two miles. Tonight I did the whole run in intervals and wasn’t tired until the last five minutes (but by then I was already close enough to home that I could see my house)! I am not a fast runner by any means, so it’s moments like this that totally encourage me… I can see myself progressing in endurance when it comes to my long runs and I know it’s only a matter of time until I will feel comfortable running a ½ marathon again! That excites me! Plus I am finding more and more that I am starting to really enjoy running again…..my mojo for it is coming back =) Whoo hoo!!!