I am not one for baby steps! I like to know where I am going and then get there as quickly as possible. I will push myself to the limit, stretch myself beyond my own ability and overwhelm every one of my senses in order to reach my goals. And although at times my expectations for myself are completely irrational and I only end up frustrated and hurt.....I tend to learn the most about myself in those moments when I've pushed myself into a corner and have my back against the wall.
Or take a more tangible example. At the beginning of this year I had grand plans to run 11 races in 2011 and I knew in order to accomplish that I needed to get a lot of miles under my belt. So even when my body got tired and my leg began to have some pain, I kept pushing myself to do what I was suppose to do without taking a moment to heed my body's warnings about where I really was at. Then I hurt my leg and ended up having to take three months off from running.
Tonight was my first night back out there, and honestly it was hard, but not for the reasons you would think. Yeah, taking three months off of running (or in my case any form of working out) while sitting around just gaining weight, meant that I have become highly unconditioned. But what was really hard for me was having to go back to baby steps! I want to be out there running for hours, clearing my head, and letting the breeze take me away. Yet, instead I'm stuck on a schedule, a schedule I chose to follow cause I knew myself and that I would immediately want to jump right back in and forget about laying that foundation.
It's time for me to understand that I don't always have to learn from my failures. I don't always have to have such high standards for myself and expect the impossible. Instead, if I go slow, take my time, and build a firm foundation, maybe I'll be able to reach beyond what I even plan. Here's hoping that's true.....